an unexpected view

Let me put the view first:

that is the light fixture on the very high ceiling of my bedroom.  I have been staring at it since yesterday since I've been flat on my back.  You wouldn't think that the simple act of rising from a chair could cause one's back to go into spasms.  And there was an added problem when I woke up this morning: there was no food in the house.   I lasted as long as I could and then showered around 11:30, dressed and literally hobbled to the market a few doors down.  I got what I needed and the bag put my off balance so get back to my apartment (thank God it was close) was just plain sad!  I ate and undressed and went back to bed.

Now, don't think I'm complaining about any of this.  Some of you have come to know that self-care is not my strongest attribute.  I'm usually pretty good at taking care of others.  As I reflect, I know that I have been working for a long time without a break and the past several weeks have been very emotional and transition-filled as well.  I really have become bone tired and have not acknowledged that.  I hit the ground running in Kiev two days after leaving Open Arms.  God/Nature/Universe knew that I needed to stop and also knew that I wasn't smart enough to choose that.  So when the plague wasn't enough to stop me, another intervention made it so I can't get around.  I am still in pain but improving and I feel much better for the enforced rest.

There have been requests for pictures of my apartment which I'll take tomorrow morning..  I have another day of rest tomorrow and then Friday I will try to resume my schedule.  I have a planned trip to Pechersk Lavra with Bishop Vladimir.